29..............I think I May Like You

Tomorrow I face the moment of truth. Tomorrow, I will begin that last year in my 20's. AAAHHH!!! I cannot believe I will be 29 tomorrow. Last year at this time, I cried from sun up to sun down. I am not sure why 28 was so hard for me. I guess it is not uncommon for young women to create a "life plan" for themselves at some point. And I, like most knew when I would graduate college, when I would live on my own, what my occupation would be, when I would go to graduate school, when I would get married, and when I would have children, and where I would live. And I assumed all of this would work out like I planned and it would all happen before I turn 30. Well fast forward 9 years, and I am still single, have a beautiful daughter, never attended graduate school, working in a field I never imagined being in, and living in a city so close to home. And its not to say these things I envisioned can't happen, it just that they didn't happen in the time frame that I wanted. That's the hard part.

I think being single is the most difficult at times. When your a lot of your peers are married, and co-workers are married, at times you can feel left out. It would be nice to say that I am at least dating. But even my date book has dust on it.

Even though I will be one year older tomorrow, i actually feel ok so far... No pity parties as of yet. I decided I would take my daughter to a theme park tomorrow, so hopefully there won't be any room for any "mope-age". I am going to try to make 29 the best year yet. I will apply to grad school, and I will try to "put myself out there" more.

...and who knows.....maybe I will wish for a good husband on my birthday cake! lol

thoughts on turning 29 to be continued.................

The FAST and the Furious

I am still on the fast, sort of. I still have been eating mostly fruits and veggies, but occasionally, i will eat a chicken salad or a small portion of food. And honestly, I feel really good. I know I haven't lost a pound or anything, but I still feel very good. I have more energy than I have had in a long time. Now i just have to work in some exercise. I think I am going to love this new way of eating!

oldies but goodies

In the beginning of 2008, I decided to start blogging. I was going to create a blog that told a story of one single woman's journey of dating, friendships, dieting, shoping, and finding herself. I started off good, but then neglected the blog. Somehow, along the way; I forgot the password, and couldn't log on to update. So..... I copied the link to catch up.

www.tellmewhatuknow.blogspot.com

Take 2

Ok.... let's just say me and the Master Cleanser did not get along. Unfortunately, i didn't last longer than a day. It was so gross. It took me one whole day to finish one bottle of this concoction of man-made vomit. So like most single women, i had a plan B. The Daniel's fast. The fasting consists of nothing but fruit, veggies, and plenty of water for 10 - 21 days. For protein, i eat a small handful of nuts, or brown rice. Beans are another option, but anyone that knows me, knows I don't do beans. So far so good. I had a small set back this weekend.... it was the 4th of July for Pete's sake! However, I am back on the wagon. Who would have thought fruit would be so hard to get in. Somehow along the years, I became a veggie girl. I can remember as a kid, not even wanting to so much look at a veggie, let alone eat one....but now fruit has become a struggle.

Cleansing Take 1

Today is the first day of the Master Cleanse. I followed the directions. I took half a lemon, squeezed that into a cup, and added a dash of cayenne pepper, and maple syrup. I poured the ingredients in a bottle of room temperature water. Give it a good shake. I took the first sip. OH MY GOODNESS!!!! It taste like vomit. I go back to the directions. I am supposed to drink how many per day? How am I going to drink 10 - 12 8 oz bottles of this per day? I am really struggling here. Every 1-2 hours it says? oh c'mon!

I finished getting myself and my daughter ready. I haven't touched the water bottle for at least 30 min. Hoping that taste had somehow changed just by sitting there. I take another sip. This time the taste is more lemony-peppery this time. Note to self: cut back on the cayenne pepper. I am not a big fan of lemons, but this a whole lot better then that vomit taste. I am still struggling. I made this drink at 6:00 am. It is now almost 9:00 am and i am still on the same bottle. This is not a good sign. Hopefully i will get used to this, and have some good results. Time will tell.

Clean Me Up Scottie!

For a while now, I have been thinking about removing meat from my diet. I am getting older now and I am noticing how yucky I feel day to day. And of course I know exercise will help, but I just want to eat better. So I have been doing some research, and I thought what better way to begin this new lifestyle, then to cleanse the toxins from the current lifestyle. I will do a Master Cleanse Program for 10 days, then begin my journey to a meatless diet. Peace of cake, right?

Let's see.....the program calls for lemons, purified water, cayenne pepper, and organic maple syrup - grade B. Sounds appetizing right? So Monday, I go to pick up my supplies. I didn't realize organic syrup was so hard to find. After calling around to several places, I finally located some. Wow....the stuff is pretty pricey.

Last night, I go home, to re-read the directions of my 10-day cleanse. Oh shoot, you need to do a oral enema of sea salt water. Who has sea salt just lying around? Ok, i read again...it needs to be uniodized salt. I guess Morton's out. Well...what difference could it really make? I get a luke warm glass of water and sprinkle good ol table salt in there. Stir it around. This can't be that bad. Take a long nice gulp of it. Gross. I can't get beyond 2 sips more.

I lay down thinking about tomorrow. I sure hope I can drink this stuff. I sit and ponder, is this the right time to start this? This weekend will be July 4th. You know the time for hot dogs, and bbq, and pasta salad. I sure I hope I can get through the weekend. Here goes nothing