Tomorrow I face the moment of truth. Tomorrow, I will begin that last year in my 20's. AAAHHH!!! I cannot believe I will be 29 tomorrow. Last year at this time, I cried from sun up to sun down. I am not sure why 28 was so hard for me. I guess it is not uncommon for young women to create a "life plan" for themselves at some point. And I, like most knew when I would graduate college, when I would live on my own, what my occupation would be, when I would go to graduate school, when I would get married, and when I would have children, and where I would live. And I assumed all of this would work out like I planned and it would all happen before I turn 30. Well fast forward 9 years, and I am still single, have a beautiful daughter, never attended graduate school, working in a field I never imagined being in, and living in a city so close to home. And its not to say these things I envisioned can't happen, it just that they didn't happen in the time frame that I wanted. That's the hard part.
I think being single is the most difficult at times. When your a lot of your peers are married, and co-workers are married, at times you can feel left out. It would be nice to say that I am at least dating. But even my date book has dust on it.
Even though I will be one year older tomorrow, i actually feel ok so far... No pity parties as of yet. I decided I would take my daughter to a theme park tomorrow, so hopefully there won't be any room for any "mope-age". I am going to try to make 29 the best year yet. I will apply to grad school, and I will try to "put myself out there" more.
...and who knows.....maybe I will wish for a good husband on my birthday cake! lol
thoughts on turning 29 to be continued.................
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