This is the time of year where you are supposed to give thanks for everything you are grateful for.
What am i doing? Stewing in my own selfishness. All that I can think about is how me and "S.O" are going to be apart for these next three days. AHHHH! What is wrong with me? I am going out of town to spend time with family, and he is staying at home to spend time with his. Rationally, there is nothing wrong with a couple doing their own thing, but why am i taking this so hard? I have been lashing out over anything, having an attitude, or been depressed for almost the past two weeks. Seriously what is wrong with me? Why is he okay with us being apart? Why am i the only one struggling with this? I know time apart can be a good thing for a couple, but i am just going to miss him like crazy! I NEED TO GET A GRIP.
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Monday, November 24, 2008
Long Time No See
Its been so long since I have blogged. I can't believe how my life has changed since my last entry. I ended the last entry with making a "husband wish" on my birthday cake. Fast forward a few months..... I AM ENGAGED!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHH!!!
I can't believe it. I have been friends with this guy for almost 15 years. Over the past 5 years he has become my best friend. He has been there for me when relationships with other guys didn't work out. Never did i imagine that the whole time, Mr. Right was right under my nose.
It all started several months ago when he accompanied me to a wedding. We were joking around and making a declaration that if neither one of us is married by the time we are 35, then we will get married. As we "shook" on the deal, it occurred to me, why not him? Why not now? It was no secret that he was interested in me, but respected my wishes of us just remaining best friends. I was so afraid it would ruin the friendship. It was no secret that we were attracted to each other. We were both single. The timing was right. This person knows everything about me, what i have been through, and loves me just the same. DUH!! This should have been a no brainer. But me being me, I had to give it some more thought. It took me going to Puerto Rico for business for it to finally hit me. I was missing him like CRAZY! At that moment, i knew I had to take a leap of faith. He picked me up from the airport and we talked about giving "us" a chance. A week later, it was official. I was now in a relationship with my best friend.
Fast forward several months.... the relationship is wonderful. I am so in love with him. This is amazing. There are no secrets between us, because we were friends first. There is non of that, phony beginning type stuff, because he already knows me. So one morning, I was lying in bed and he was getting ready for work when he stopped everything and came over to the side of the bed i was on. He looked at me and told me he loved me, and how he felt about me. Then he asked me to marry him. I was in shock. He kept waiting for an answer, and i kept asking if he was serious. I never occurred to me that i didn't answer him! LOL His face looked disappointed and he said, " well i guess i am going to go to work..." I was still in shock and just shook my head "ok". Finally when he was at the door, i realized... "oh shoot, i never answered him...," and I yelled... "YES!!!!" He ran back in the bedroom, and asked "yes?". I said "yes" again. We hugged. I didn't want to let go. That was the best Monday I have ever had. LOL
I am going to marry my best friend December 5th, 2009. There is only one thing remaining......he has to ask my fathers permission........ to be con't..... :-)
I can't believe it. I have been friends with this guy for almost 15 years. Over the past 5 years he has become my best friend. He has been there for me when relationships with other guys didn't work out. Never did i imagine that the whole time, Mr. Right was right under my nose.
It all started several months ago when he accompanied me to a wedding. We were joking around and making a declaration that if neither one of us is married by the time we are 35, then we will get married. As we "shook" on the deal, it occurred to me, why not him? Why not now? It was no secret that he was interested in me, but respected my wishes of us just remaining best friends. I was so afraid it would ruin the friendship. It was no secret that we were attracted to each other. We were both single. The timing was right. This person knows everything about me, what i have been through, and loves me just the same. DUH!! This should have been a no brainer. But me being me, I had to give it some more thought. It took me going to Puerto Rico for business for it to finally hit me. I was missing him like CRAZY! At that moment, i knew I had to take a leap of faith. He picked me up from the airport and we talked about giving "us" a chance. A week later, it was official. I was now in a relationship with my best friend.
Fast forward several months.... the relationship is wonderful. I am so in love with him. This is amazing. There are no secrets between us, because we were friends first. There is non of that, phony beginning type stuff, because he already knows me. So one morning, I was lying in bed and he was getting ready for work when he stopped everything and came over to the side of the bed i was on. He looked at me and told me he loved me, and how he felt about me. Then he asked me to marry him. I was in shock. He kept waiting for an answer, and i kept asking if he was serious. I never occurred to me that i didn't answer him! LOL His face looked disappointed and he said, " well i guess i am going to go to work..." I was still in shock and just shook my head "ok". Finally when he was at the door, i realized... "oh shoot, i never answered him...," and I yelled... "YES!!!!" He ran back in the bedroom, and asked "yes?". I said "yes" again. We hugged. I didn't want to let go. That was the best Monday I have ever had. LOL
I am going to marry my best friend December 5th, 2009. There is only one thing remaining......he has to ask my fathers permission........ to be con't..... :-)
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