January promised to be a wonderful month. After J spoke with my Dad, things were so good. Well, shortly after we hit a couple of financial roadblocks. His car is out of commission, and it will be a little costly to get it fixed. On top of that, a couple days later, he was laid-off. AHHHH! I just want to scream! This put a little jam in the wedding plans. At this point I am not sure what the next step is. He is looking for a new job, but the job market is so crappy right now. I am just trying to be patient and keep the faith. Maybe its the stress that is adding to me irrational thinking, but part of me wants to just chuck it all and just go to the court house.
On top of that. I am late. Yes, late. According the calendar, about 4 days. I know that may not be a big deal, and under the circumstances, being late is easily possible; but for the past couple of hours, I have been totally obsessed about it. I have been analyzing everything! I don't think i am going to get a test just yet. All the symptoms i have been feeling are so similar to Aunt Flo. The more i think, "what if i am?" the more i think i will be disappointed if I'm not. Me and J have talked about kids, and we both want more after we get married. I know the timing could be a little off yet, I can't help but get a little excited at the possibilities.
Well, I guess I will just wait a few more days and see if Aunt Flo rears her face.
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